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From How to Occupy Ourselves by David Howard & Fiona Pardington

Getting There

1

If his eye is silent hers is
a mirror: here there
between
reckoning: his head rests on more than her

surface. Difficult - she thinks impossible -
to live without him within.
This is not to say.

2

Frost on the rotted dinghy, its oars
heavy like the mud that welcomes
ducks on the first day of hunting.
He replaces her eyes' absence with the sky's.

His window does not look but fronts the river.
She was the patron of his faith, of his loss
of faith. He was not looking -
the ducks, the hunters were there

anyway. By noon the frost was gone, he
launched the dinghy like a Victorian
in order to dredge his face from the ripples, then
reassemble a carnivore. Eat.

3

In order to hold the earth better he
turned into barley; in order to
moisten her lips he fermented
in the sun she once denied him.

She thought him out of order.
Hers was a dear eternity,
its span wider than the roots put
down to win this heartless heart.

- That's how he tells it;
hers is the story you'll never hear.
Words like 'dessicate' and 'hate'
ringbark an afternoon of fruit-trees.

4

Storm-drawn, your face against a sunrise.
- That's what he wanted from her,
a portrait rather than a person, a girl
daubed by the morning rather than a woman

worn by the night's desire, its subsidence.
Instead in their orchard he saw gorse; he thought
more of his disappointment than her.

A Mother's Story (for Mahmoud Darwish)

already the settlers arrive to ruins
when her heart beats
it also measures while their eyes measure the desert's dark
the wheat's ear
the crow's feathers their chisels are eager for heroes to sculpt
the length of dock-root
in Galilee they settle on headstones
the strength of rock-salt
from the Dead Sea. the dark ripples over the shoulder of the hill
 
she is nameless like the cry of the mujahedeen
but she loves
that underweight son 'stand by your brother
with the lantern
heavy in his left hand be he oppressor or oppressed'
its light cannot neutralize
the dark inside outside the light
the barrel

*

So strong is his will that it can produce a simulacrum of patience, prudence and fortitude at those moments when he feels most exposed, fragile and erratic. The stronger his attraction the more extreme his reaction, so the closer he is drawn the further he withdraws. Of course nature does not acknowledge whatever's absent - it is prodigal with species, variations, effects - so any withdrawal is artificial, a perverse tearing of the world's fabric. This is how it appears to the West. Mahmoud knows that if a bird does not believe in trees it will not rest; he believes in the tree that is there yet, ultimately, he hopes to rest in the tree that isn't there.

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© David Howard & Fiona Pardington























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